05122009

dad bought us our first christmas tree after we decided we couldn't afford one, and family presents was more important.
So that is up..we bought some more deccys for it and it looks lovely in our bare wee living room haha.
Couch should be here soon.
Been Christmas shopping.
Spent time getting to know the neighbours.
Not done much to be honest.
Cannot believe that it's December already. Doesn't even feel like Christmas yet! At what age does that feeling just dissappear?

My hubby is snoring on the living room floor, doing what he does best.
I'm knackered also.
And hungryz..anyone wanna buy me some food?!

Bored.

26112009

Went next door last night to meet some of the other wives and have a few drinks and stuff. Ended up leaving about 3.

Had a really lovely night and it was nice to meet some of our neighbours and get to know people a bit better.

i'm now dying on our shitty army couch with my cosy duvet missing my man. He's home tomorrow though so that's exciting :)

Oh..this is our new couch. It doesn't get her until December 21st and i'm not kidding...it will be heaven to lie on something that doesn't feel like wood and cardboard!

24112009

Barrie's away. Again.
I would really be insanely happy if he was here every day.
But then i guess the whole, absence makes the heart grow fonder shit is real.
It's always so exciting to know he's coming home & to count the days passing by til we get to be together again. And then when he does get back, it's like falling in love with him all over again & like we're a new couple! All giggly and excitey.
And when he is away all i can think about is how much i love him and how great we are together.
We obviously have our arguements...and it's weird cause they're always massive hahah..but it brings us closer together.

And after about how wonderful he was when i had to go A&E and he wasn't even here...I just know i married the most amazing man in the world for me :)
2 years together/4 months married today

Aaaahh i'll fuck off and stop being soppy now.

21112009

Since i last posted i...

• Got married. ♥ :) (best day of my life)
• Moved out of Bergen, Germany.
• Moved into Kent, England.
• Haven't found a job.
• Signed on the dole...to find out i won't get pennies for it.
• Got fat(ter)..yes, possible!!
• Still have to sign on the dole but i don't get paid. Pointless.
• Still haven't found a job.
• Been on my own alot.
• Got fatter. Again.
• Raged at our shit army furniture!
• Went back and visited Mum & Dad in Germany.
• Took a trip upto A&E! Scary times.
• Had a wisdom tooth grow in and make me want to die.

About it really.

Christmas soon....i realise now why i never update my blog...i never have anything to say!!

29062009

I brought my wedding dress home with me on saturday :)

I am insanely excited! It's now hanging in the wardrobe begging me to wear it..i just want to wear it all over the house, doing the house work in it and sitting watching tv haha! I love it so much. Showed kerry it today on the webcam and was all excitey about getting to touch it again hahah!

i have 25 full days left of being Miss Sara Gentle! Have mixed emotions about this, i'm so proud of my amazing family and being a Gentle...but at the same time i really cannot wait to be Mrs Doran-Thorp either! I can't wait to share his name and move into our quarter and spend forever together.

I can't even explain how much he means to me. I have never been so happy in my life. He really does complete me and as gay as that sounds, i know it's true.

My day just doesn't seem right unless i wake up with him next to me and go to bed without him...i wait with butterflies all day for him to finish work and the moment he comes home and puts his arms round me i fall for him all over again.

I know if i'm feeling shit, all he ever has to do is hold me in his arms and kiss my head and I feel safe again.

Him being in Iraq for 6 months was the hardest thing i've ever gone through and the hardest thing we've (so far) gone through as a couple..but we got through it together.

Even though he's been living with us for the past year, i'm still scared about the fact that we'll be living in our own place in Chatham..as husband and wife. It's all going to be new and different but i cannot wait.

I feel like the happiest and luckiest girl in the whole world.

:):)

xx

21062009

wedding plans seem to be going nicely! trying to get everything sorted out before we head the the Uk for uncle waynes wedding. really looking forward to seeing everyone again.
Had my second dress fitting yesterday so i'm now getting really excited..should be ready to pick up next weekend! it's all pretty mental and stressfull as the shop doesn't speak english and we don't speak german..but my dress is amazing and my family are amazing for paying for it!
just need to sort out the evening meals and kerrys bridesmaid dress and that's about it to be honest! everything else is pretty much sorted.
everyone has been so helpfull...baz's mum has offered to make our cake, ayhan has said he'll hire me a limo to get to the church, wil offered to dj, becky decided to take on flowers and pea is doing our photography for us. it doesn't seem like much but when there's a million things to do, just those little things to not worry about take a massive load off!

it's weird having kerry as my bridesmaid and her being so far away. she's my best friend and nobody could replace her, didn't even have to think twice about who i'd ask to di it. just, i know she's busy with work and has her own thing going on at the moment..but i've never felt so apart from her in my life! it's really upsetting me that she's just not as excited as i would like her to be. and i know that sounds selfish and i can't force feelings on people...but out of everyone she's been the least supportive/helpfull and it's breaking my heart. all i asked you to do was find out what size you are...it only takes a minute :(
kerry...message me or phone me or something...just, i don't know! get measured, give me advice, speak to me, get excited with me, laugh and cry with me...stop being so distant.
it's always upset me whenever i've read your blog and you've spoke about home and missing mum and dad. i'm still here and i'm still your sister.
i don't know what i've done to make you forget about me.

5 weeks yesterday until i'm mrs doran-thorp!
3 weeks tomorrow until my 21st.
jeeeez.
xxx

I'M GETTING MARRIED!

how exciting :)

honestly couldn't be happier...i love him so much.